Anxiety affects people in different ways. Today, I thought I’d talk about how anxiety affects me. I’m going to be open and honest.
Me: “Right, time to leave.”
Anxiety: “You need a shit.”
Me: “Na, I’m good, I’ve already been.”
Anxiety: “You definitely need a shit”
Me: “Na, I just said I’m good.”
Anxiety: “Well I’d try once more, just to be safe.”
*I proceed to sit on the toilet for 10 minutes, nothing happens.*
Me: “Right, time to go now.”
*I drive for 10 minutes*
Anxiety: “Hi, me again! I told you that you should’ve gone to the toilet.”
Me: “Yeah, I reckon I could go now actually, but I’m driving so I can’t.”
Anxiety: “You definitely need to go.”
*1 minute from destination*
Me: “I definitely need to go, I hope there’s a toilet here.”
*Arrive, rush to find a toilet, find a toilet, pray a cubicle is free, do the business, breathe.*
Anxiety: “I told you.”
Me: “Twat.”
So, that situation is very common for me. It’s shit (…) and it has lead to me withdrawing from a variety of social situations, a number of exciting opportunities and other day to day activities. But, however hard it is to control at times, I think it’s important to recognise small wins. Wins like: leaving the house, going for a walk, going to the shop. Small wins are what keep me going and give me hope that one day, I’ll say “twat” to anxiety one last time and he’ll be gone for good.
See you later.
Mr Anxiety 